My New Year's resolution is to be learn/try to be as strong as my mother.

I know everyone says this about their moms, that they are the most amazing people they have ever known. And my mother truly truly is.

I've been talking to my mom a lot lately, on a more personal level. I always knew my mom was the rock that keeps this family going, and the glue that keeps us so close. She's always played mediator between us and my dad, and between my dad and his family even. She still supports every member of her family in more ways then just emotionally and at 59, she's still got what it takes to be passionate about whats most important to her next to her family, social work.

Recently though, she's started sharing more of her feelings with me, telling me things that happened way before my brother and I were conceived when she and my dad where fighting to be married, right up to how she deals with the temperimental man she's married to for the past 32 years and wouldnt call it anything less then happy years.

History is kind of repeating itself at the moment. And what i am going through now isnt even close to the magnitude my mom had to put up with those years ago. Even so, I am already so shaken emotionally, and though it is me who should be strong and hard willed, I'm leaning on her for support. And she takes it all in. Not a single tear, and not a single falter of optimism, not a single sign of weakness. I heart my mother SO much!