I know i am a worry wart.

Ever since the latest revelation in the saga that is my relationship (ref: Previous post) i have all these gazillion questions running through my head.

More then just what or how i will come across to his parents, now is also the time we've got to start deciding what we want to do with our lives - together.

We've covered that he'll come here, now we have to work on building him a life here, thats individual from mine. I know all the love stories will tell you that love conquers all. Well it wont. If we don't have joint income, we wont be able to get ourselves property, automobiles and the beautiful lifestyle we want together. So yea, public announcement here, if anyone knows anyone who knows anyone who would be keen on hiring an Indian national with a Singaporean PR who would love to work in Malaysia, and is a robotics engineer by profession, you know my email!

Securing a job would seem like the easier part. Then there is the whole buying stuff thing. I'm the kind of person who doesn't read contracts, just sign at the bottom. Every time i need to get something that involves huge amounts of paperwork done, i go with my dad or my brother. They figure out which is the best loan, which has the lowest interest, which has good market value bla bla.. in other words, they do the hard work and i just tell them what i want. Now, i'll have to be involved in the whole process and it all just sounds so daunting.

Plus the thought that both sets of parents might start talking about the M word keeps flying through my mind. I mean talk about it okay la we talk about it too. But you know, i'm worried they'd go beyond just talking about how drunk Logan and Praba would get , or how I would most probably cry or how the dinner will be a bbq. Yes we want it to happen too, more then ever but there's all these other things to worry about. This whole thing has so many sensitivities its worse then a hindi movie. Theres the whole civil ceremony vs cultural ceremony. Then the whole which location, Then the whole when(?!?!), i mean, we're not even close to ready, Look at our bank balances, combined even we're not halfway there. Then there's money, OH GAWD the money questions don't even get me started there! I want the biggest most gorgeous wedding in the world!!!!! Like, seriously. For real.

I have no more finger nails to chew on!!

I feel like a wreck just thinking about it and they're only going to be coming in a few months time.

Oh woe be my finger nails..

*runs hysterically through office corridors*