:(
Logan's left, for greener pastures and better opportunities. All the way in eff-ing Korea.
That was probably the longest, most quiet ride back from the airport i've ever experienced..
And it sucks.
I didn't even give him a real hug, cause I was too busy trying not to cry. See, even then thinking of myself. Now all I wanna do is give him one real big squeeze of a hug so he remembers what it feels like.
Someone asked me why I'm getting so worked up over my brother leaving, cause people's siblings go away all the time. He's not just my brother, he plays like so many lead characters in my life. Sometimes i think he knows me better then i know myself. He's always watched over me and looked out for me, and never once said no, told me i couldn't be something or made me feel any less then special. I on the other hand, pull a long face with him for something as stupid as him clearing the history on my laptop. And he doesn't even get upset with me for doing things like that.
He's always just been there, from a mid afternoon distraction call to knowing i've had a bad day just by the grunts i give as answers.
Who's going to call me lame for asking for directions to vioba for the 100th time and who's going to comfort me when i think i have all the problems in the world (and they're so much bigger then everybody elses because their mine).
He's just been part of every event thats happened with me, big or small, right from getting a flat tire on the highway to choosing my career path. I can't imagine him not being part of all thats to come. I want to be Hiro Nakamura then i can fix this shitty feeling :(
No its not ok, and no you don't know how i feel, and no i won't get used to it. I won't even learn to live with it.
That was probably the longest, most quiet ride back from the airport i've ever experienced..
And it sucks.
I didn't even give him a real hug, cause I was too busy trying not to cry. See, even then thinking of myself. Now all I wanna do is give him one real big squeeze of a hug so he remembers what it feels like.
Someone asked me why I'm getting so worked up over my brother leaving, cause people's siblings go away all the time. He's not just my brother, he plays like so many lead characters in my life. Sometimes i think he knows me better then i know myself. He's always watched over me and looked out for me, and never once said no, told me i couldn't be something or made me feel any less then special. I on the other hand, pull a long face with him for something as stupid as him clearing the history on my laptop. And he doesn't even get upset with me for doing things like that.
He's always just been there, from a mid afternoon distraction call to knowing i've had a bad day just by the grunts i give as answers.
Who's going to call me lame for asking for directions to vioba for the 100th time and who's going to comfort me when i think i have all the problems in the world (and they're so much bigger then everybody elses because their mine).
He's just been part of every event thats happened with me, big or small, right from getting a flat tire on the highway to choosing my career path. I can't imagine him not being part of all thats to come. I want to be Hiro Nakamura then i can fix this shitty feeling :(
No its not ok, and no you don't know how i feel, and no i won't get used to it. I won't even learn to live with it.
posted by Annushia at 9:45 AM
1 Comments:
Annu!! I know how you feel! I do i do! My advice: GET A WEBCAM!!! :) and thank god for cheaper phone rates!
*hugs*
Halina
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