Simply top drawer

I stuck to my will to try and be not so lazy and actually cleaned my room over the weekend. Its amazing how many years worth of memories just one drawer can hold. I must admit, i went to bed that night very nostalgic and somewhat melancholic. Just shuffling through the items in there brought me back to so many different frames of my life these past few years. I could see a virtual map of what i was and what i have changed to now.

Some of the things i found, which i forgot where in there are

• Letters from my aunt and cousin when they first migrated to Canada. I was 10 and he was 9. The letters spanned across 2 years, by when i guess we drifted apart and there were only so many things to repeat in each letter. As time went by, i suppose the distance made it harder to even fill one sheet on a letter pad... and we let it happen. Reading through the letters made me miss them again. I realised that i had gotten used to them being away, to not having to see them every Christmas.. and that was the saddest part. I cant wait for Christmas 2006, just to sit in mass with them again, and open presents and be stupid.. just like the old times.
  Reading his letters showed how much he has changed too. We both used to collect erasers ( i know how boring) and in almost every letter he would update me with how many more he had and how they were more cooler then mine. Also he would tell me how he loved his Sega cause there was so much blood. Now he's a strapping 23 year old breaking hearts and shaking up cocktails.
• Letters from my BRATs friends from when i was 16. The measly attempts we made at staying in touch regardless of our swears to forever be friends when we left the workshop. It was dissapointing that i could only remember the faces of 3 or 4 of them, and most were names that i had no faces to link to anymore. Laughed silly when i read how we,even then bitched about the one who sucked up most and the one who was the most kiasu and the one who threw herself on the cute guy.
• My Micheal Jackson concert video. Yes i am a fan. I was a crazy fan when i was in highschool. My biggest dissapointment was that my mother wouldn't let me go for his concert in KL because it was the night before my PMR Geography paper. I used to have books on him, pictures, newspaper articles.. you name it, sort of like an amateur stalker. This video was the last of it and i finally decided it was time to move on - i chucked it.
• Lettes from my friend Diana after our Olevels - again, another futile attempt to stay in touch forever.
• A box of a dozen pencils with my name inscribed on each one - the first gift i got from my aunt when she first moved to Canada. Plus my box of many many many erasers - i didnt have the heart to chuck them, but i dont know what in the world i'm going to do with them now.
• My music tapes from the time when i would save and save to buy tapes and when tapes where still the in thing - Fresh Prince and Jazzy Jeff, Color Me Badd, Ini Kamoze, Bon Jovi and some which labels had faded off.
• A birthday card from the voices gang from my 21st Birthday party that my parents threw me at Modestos. I laughed out loud as i read some of the messages from them. Some of the more memorable ones would be
  - Another year for more sin and debouchery - Garage (ah Garage Garage)
  - Happy bday Annu, Timah Rocks!!!! - Sumi (timah is a whole post by itself)
  - Dear Annu, maintain your great figure - Bill (sorry to dissapoint you there Bill, its just one big blop of fat now)
  - Tubs - Tubs (hahahahha)
• A pencil written letter from a friend at an attempt to salvage a friendship that was going down the drain. I'm glad she took the effort to write that. I cant remember how i reacted to it then, but reading it brought back a lot of memories, bad and good - mostly good.
• Birthday cards from Halina for my 16th, 18th, 21st and 22nd birthdays. I think the years in between were missed out cause she was freezing her arse off in Nottingham.
• A card for our one year anniversary from Aji. He was in Dallas then and i was here in Kl convinced that the relationship was doomed. It was his faith that kept it going, thank goodness for that. You make me walk with a bounce in my step, thats what it said. I was walking on clouds when it came delivered to my office, accompanied by 2 dozen roses. Ahh, the wonders of internet purchasing eh.. :) keeps many a relationship alive. This cards a definate keeper.
• A valentines day card from my brother. When i got into second year of uni and we were both in our respective relationships, i guess we slowly drifted from each other for awhile. We were both spending almost all our time with the significant other that a lot was left unsaid. The card caught me totally by surprise, but i remember feeling very emotional when i got it because i realised that he too missed me, we just weren't very good at expressing it. This one i will not chuck. Handmade, a brown paper with cut offs stuck in the shape of a teddy bear on the front and tiny hearts inside, its not hallmark production but it holds and is worth more then anything you can get off a shelf.

Now thats done, next project is to seive through the wardrobe..