its been a year..
people still think i'm brave and strong
i wish they knew what really goes on (or just tell them to shove it)
i dont want to miss you anymore
i dont want to remember how you take your drinks
or how you light a stick
or how you like your food, or how you like to dress
how you take hours in the shower
and how you made up a song to hold my hand
i dont want to remember what you used to call me
or the things you bought me
or the late mornings you'd make my coffee
i don't want to remember how you talk in your sleep or how you crawl under the covers
i don't want to remember your favourite songs
or your favourite movies
or your favourite football team
i dont want to remember the yelling, and the fighting
and the hurt and the crying
I dont want to look around my room and see you in everything
You have your stamp on all my favourites
my favourite restaurants, my favourite celebrations, my favourite songs, even my favourite people too
I need to peel your labels off, labels of me and you
i hate that i still see you in everything i do
We made life together
We also ripped the worst out of each other
We loved each other and we hurt each other with equal intensity
I don't know if i'll ever go down that path again
You're one step ahead of me
He told me
Its ok to remember it as the saddest part of my life
but i dont have to live life sad
he always gets it right, and i miss him the most right now
you're not even here anymore and he catches me everytime you make me fall
he's the only person in this whole world who will never 'break up' with me
I hate what this has made me
I used to love weddings, I can't bear to sit through one anymore
I used to believe in eternity, its easier to throw a cynic's laugh now
I used to think honesty won you everything, honesty lost me everything
I don't give credit, I don't care, and I don't trust
People tell me the best is yet to come
Truly, its just the rest that are yet to come
I look around and realize how different life is
I look around and realize how still life is..
i wish they knew what really goes on (or just tell them to shove it)
i dont want to miss you anymore
i dont want to remember how you take your drinks
or how you light a stick
or how you like your food, or how you like to dress
how you take hours in the shower
and how you made up a song to hold my hand
i dont want to remember what you used to call me
or the things you bought me
or the late mornings you'd make my coffee
i don't want to remember how you talk in your sleep or how you crawl under the covers
i don't want to remember your favourite songs
or your favourite movies
or your favourite football team
i dont want to remember the yelling, and the fighting
and the hurt and the crying
I dont want to look around my room and see you in everything
You have your stamp on all my favourites
my favourite restaurants, my favourite celebrations, my favourite songs, even my favourite people too
I need to peel your labels off, labels of me and you
i hate that i still see you in everything i do
We made life together
We also ripped the worst out of each other
We loved each other and we hurt each other with equal intensity
I don't know if i'll ever go down that path again
You're one step ahead of me
He told me
Its ok to remember it as the saddest part of my life
but i dont have to live life sad
he always gets it right, and i miss him the most right now
you're not even here anymore and he catches me everytime you make me fall
he's the only person in this whole world who will never 'break up' with me
I hate what this has made me
I used to love weddings, I can't bear to sit through one anymore
I used to believe in eternity, its easier to throw a cynic's laugh now
I used to think honesty won you everything, honesty lost me everything
I don't give credit, I don't care, and I don't trust
People tell me the best is yet to come
Truly, its just the rest that are yet to come
I look around and realize how different life is
I look around and realize how still life is..
posted by Annushia at 12:29 AM
8 Comments:
:( Annueee.... i dont know what to say. Ur post made me cry too much. Im sorry. I love you! *Hugs*
aww annu, this could be the lyrics to a great lagu jiwang!
annu ,
U will be alright soon .I really dont think it wld have done u any good if u were still together , trust me , the best is yet to come for u
Annu,
I really hope you get over this soon, just think of him who has gotten over it and with everything, take ur own time but make sure u dont 'live ur life sad' for someone else !
well written, babe.
hugs***
I feel you. I could feel your heart breaking through those words.
*hugs*
Your post reminded me of the many pains i have been put through, HE who gives you the pain will also give you the strength and courage to go through it, to erase those memories that were once created and to lose value on those things which once were deemed important. HE will show you the way and you will have to execute it.Be strong and start flushing those happy/sad moments away. Detach yourself from the memories :)
Annu, I may not know you well enough, but I certainly feel that you're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Keep moving forward and someday you'd look back and think how this episode has made you into a much better person and you'd be thankful for it. =)
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